I guess I am a bit late on the old let’s get cracking on 2017 and kick start the year with positivity, go-getter attitude and a bunch of resolutions to make me a better person. Everyone was doing that 2 weeks ago. I am still sitting here trying to work out whether it is possible to be more awesome than I was last year. Hey, don’t mistake that for I was ridiculously awesome last year and there is no way I can be better. Take that as I was okay last year but can I really request all these things of myself and actually achieve any of it?
We all have our goals and aspirations of fitness, health, new me sort of stuff which is awesome and I don’t take away from all that. Trying to achieve more in life is a great thing but for me, I try to be all those health related things most of the year anyway. At this time of year I become more reflective of who I am as a person inside and can I actually change and be a better person? I have faults, oh I have faults. I see them and each year (actually most months), I try to be better and be less faulty. I am up to 38 years in a few weeks and so far I haven’t had much luck. In fact, some of those lovely personal traits I have are worse!
I also analyse how my year was based on events in my life. The things that have happened and how this potentially affects my life over the next year. As many of you know, the reason for starting this whole blog was related to us making life changes and moving to New Zealand. That progress is currently stagnant as far as it happening by the end of next year, but with lots of tiny holes still letting the light through. We should have more answers on this in a few weeks and I haven’t blogged about it because it is so up in the air I just wanted to wait instead of venting frustrations out into cyberspace! This leaves many open ended questions and answers to our 2017. But hopefully this will resolve soon and our build will be underway! Apparently loads of other people decided it would be a brilliant idea to build in Queenstown too. And here I was thinking we were original.
We all have things in our life that we would like to change. Aspects of ourselves. I know I have a few. Often I go into a new week with ideas or the will to try to do better, whether it be yelling less at my kids, being more patient sitting in traffic or just more patient in general or being more thoughtful and considerate to the people around me. I do also wish I didn’t have that extra glass of wine, was too lazy to run on Sunday or snuck 2 Ferrero Rochers into my mouth instead of just 1. But hey… if your husband buys the giant box, what does a girl do?
We as humans measure time and this means at the start of a new year we look at it as a fresh start, a new beginning. The thing is I tend to do this more on a weekly basis or monthly basis and just generally try to be better than before. I am an over analyser of all parts of myself and so question myself and my actions on a frequent basis. One could say that is a good thing but I am sure it isn’t great to do all the time either. More often than not, I don’t get there. I am me. Some things I can’t change and some things I can try and will fail and other things I will be headstrong and relentless and do better. So my question to everyone to whether you or I can be more awesome than last year is…
How long should you try?
I will try until. We should all try until. We should always keep trying. We should never give up, even when we fail. Because we will fail. But that is okay. It is okay to fail. The point is we are always trying. I give this advice to my kids all the time and I need to take it myself. I tell them it doesn’t matter if you don’t win, you fail, you don’t finish. As long as you tried and gave it a shot. Some things we will excel at and we can seriously go nuts then and definitely have that last glass of wine. Well not the kids, just me but that shit is worth celebrating.
So whether I can be more awesome than last year is seriously debatable at this point in time. I have got some serious work to do. But I was awesome last year in so many ways and I will try to be more awesome this year.
On that note, did you know that it is possible to suffer from mephobia? Mephobia is the fear of being so awesome that the human race can’t handle it and everybody dies. Perhaps that is our problem. If we were all so damn awesome the world would implode. So we have to have our faults or our little vices to keep the world turning. It’s a nice thought so let’s get out and rock 2017 and be awesome, but not enough to wipe us out.